I have to admit. My last post was horrid. It was long, sappy and over all, horrid. I personally told some of my closest friends to read it with the very specific warning that they might end up throwing up. And yes, undeniably, I gave them headaches last night.
I gave myself one too.
I can't say I spent the entire night unable to sleep because of the amount of stupid guts I put into that post, not to mention emotion I'd scraped out to make that post. Okay.
I'll try not to make this post as sappy as the last one but I guess I need to keep venting.
After that humongous downpour of emotions yesterday, I wish I could say that now, I feel better about how I feel about that certain person. But the entire time I was awake last night and even now, I could just never stop thinking about how empty-feeling I am.
I know. it's weird, emo, blaaargh, whatever. I just feel totally lame and empty and alone and How to Save a Life's been playing over and over and over again in my head.
He hasn't reacted yet, of course but, gahhh, I'm having second thoughts about that post.
I can't delete it right now since I might end up regretting that but yeah. There's that feeling: empty.
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